For some reason I can't seem to get a job to save my life. I'm really tired of trying. So, my mother has the bright idea for me to substitute teach... It scares me to death... I'm not a fan of kids in large numbers... But what if I really do like it and then I want to be a teacher and then I have to do a lot more schooling and then my parents won't pay for it and then I'll be stuck with degrees that don't do anything... Bah on Life.

I haven't wrote in a very long (long, long) time... And I probably shouldn't be writing right now anyway, there's school work to be done! But for some reason as I sit in this weird (I don't know really why I call it weird) library proud of my achievements so far I decided to look at my long lost blog and show it some love. I retired from softball finally, and I'm still not sure how I feel about it even though its been around 5 months. School has become easier but my search for a job has been like a roller coaster. I interviewed for a marketing job in Nashville that I would have loved to take but I just knew the second he offered me the position that I was going to be completely overwhelmed driving the 48 (I think) miles to work every morning at the crack of dawn to be there by 7:30, so I declined and have yet to be able to find a job in Clarksville. My parents are getting frustrated with me and this job hunting but I am trying, I don't like being poor, I couldn't tell you the last time I went shopping and actually bought something. How tragic. But other than that I have been doing school work non-stop, I'm so excited to be just one semester from graduating! It's crazy to think that I've done this whole college thing in three and a half years even with transferring schools. I have yet to completely think about post college plans, I guess there's a little part of me that wishes I had a reason or a influence in making decisions, like a man in my life that would be nice. I finally let me guard down to start dating someone and he broke my heart and that's a little much to say he broke it but I just had hope for once in my life that something would go my way.

I need to stop writing and continue to do my work. Just 4 more weeks!